Tag: Love

Original artwork, Original poetry

A Pledge to my Heart

Sacha

I have to realise that you are way too much in fear
The games your mind play mean you can’t have me near
I appreciate ‘our space’ but know I have to let you go
I have to find my strength, that I to my own heart owe

I owe my heart to be with ‘you’
Who can love me so fully all my patterns undo
Who can be authentic, distinguishable from the ‘coof’
A grownup manifesting the love of truth!

Until the day ‘you’ will appear
I’ll love my heart and all its fear
I’ll be the wholeness of a burning presence
For ‘you’ to appear in the light of my essence

Then we can flow into the play of love
Manifesting qualities from high above
The light will shine through me, and I’ll know I’m not lost
Being true to my heart no matter the cost!

© 2021 Original painting and poetry by heartlight.blog. All rights reserved.

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To My Inner Child

Sacha

I am sorry for leaving you
I didn’t know any better
But I am here for you now
I will not judge you, Ignore you
Project on to you, like they do!

I will thank them and let them be
So I can take care of what’s in me
You, my dear, my sweet innocent child
I’ll never leave you again
So much hurt I caused, you had to flee!

Forgive me, dear child, I was lost
But I’m coming home now
I’ll hold you, love, and protect you
You’re no longer threatened on your survival
My flight has had too high a cost!

Now rest peacefully in my presence
This is a new beginning
I am no longer lost in the world
You, my dear, are my light shining bright
You are my joy and my essence!

It is time to laugh, play and be
My inner child, I am here now
I am home again to stay
The nightmare is over
You are finally free!

© 2021 Original painting and poetry by heartlight.blog. All rights reserved.

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A Letter of Goodbye

Sacha

I am sorry for creating a world of fury and fire
It hurt me when you ignored me and ran away
Your detachment made my pain rise higher
Couldn’t understand why you didn’t stay

A pain so high I lost my own sense of being
The trauma of not having worth
Disturbed the truth my heart was seeing
A disturbance constructed at birth

But my heart does see you didn’t mean to cause me pain
And your escape was never about my worth
But just your own paranoia, which was insane
And inhibited something new to be nourished to birth

I guess it happened ’cause my soul needed to learn
That when losing my heart in a man who can’t stay true
I’ll be in hell until the day my karmic imprint will burn
Till the day, all my patterns of trauma undo

I do believe I am still with you in your mind
And that you are suffering as well
’Cause something was so true and rare to find
But the disturbance made us both fell

In the end, the beauty of the situation revealed
That it was never really about you to set me free
But my own opening within, which used to be sealed
That now, I am open to embracing fully being me

Despite I’ll miss what we were and had
The bond we shared and the truth underneath
I thank you while still being in shock and sad
Connecting to the earth under my feet

’Cause I know, one day the contraction will transform
Into openness, wholeness and expansion once more
When something new is ready to be born and grow
The beauty and bliss I will again be and adore!

© 2021 Original painting and poetry by heartlight.blog. All rights reserved.

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Who Are You?

Sacha

I don’t know you
Don’t understand you
But what is not ‘you’
What is the true you
I see that
And I see myself in that
That I long to belong to

So why need answers
To who you are?

Because you hurt
‘The little me’
And that little one
Wants answers
Answers to how you could
Leave her open heart
Out in the cold
Just like her father did
Which made her feel so lost

So lost
So lost
Who are you?
Who are you?
Who are you?!

© 2021 Original painting and poetry by heartlight.blog. All rights reserved.

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Healing the wound deep within

Sacha

I have a wound in my being
Which affects my blood and sight
All that flows through me
All that I am seeing
Is your neglect
Your disrespect
Devaluing my essence
How can I ever trust myself
In your arms again?
How can I end my projections?

I must return home
To heal my wound
So I can start to feel and see
The true reality around me
That you don’t mean to cause me harm
And what I put on you
Merely is a reflection of my inner self
An unloving internal voice
Subconsciously convinced
That I am not worthy of your love

Oblivious to the fact
that I am already this love
That I don’t need you for my
Emotional survival
Break this mirror of illusion
I want to heal my wound
To live authentically again
Valuing, respecting and loving
The essence I shine from within
Shedding this victim narrative
Bringing back my power

The journey has started…

© 2021 Original painting and poetry by heartlight.blog. All rights reserved.

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The Illusion Burst

Sacha

I lost myself in you
And now it hurts
Reality came true
And the illusion burst

Finally, we together could be
But like a scared hunted deer
You couldn’t even look at me
All you projected were fear

I was out of my essence
In shock of what I just saw
Your former strong presence
Vanished and exposed your flaw

That you were never anything but a vision
And in reality, falling short
That you were just a man on a mission
Ignoring your heart with your thought

Letting your mind’s paranoia and fear
Control your body, heart and being
Making sure I couldn’t come you near
Only the void of love I am seeing

So painful to realise and see
How I lost myself again to ‘man’
That in truth, we could never be a ‘we’
Your paranoia my heart can’t withstand

Like a scared hunted deer
In the woods, you vanished
You couldn’t have me near
My true being was banished

I lost myself in you
And now it hurts
Reality came true
And the illusion burst!

© 2021 Original painting and poetry by heartlight.blog. All rights reserved.

Original artwork, Original poetry

Can’t Escape the Pain

Sacha

No drugs can release the feeling of depression and fear
Why do I lose myself so much when you are not here?
I wish I could drown my feelings in sugar and drugs
Though in truth, I know what I need is my own love and hugs

Why have I left myself so isolated and frozen?
Why has my soul this lonely life chosen?
So dissociated, so sad and confused
Feeling fatigued, frustrated, used

The same soundtrack of melancholic lines
Repeatedly display my thoughts and rewind
All the unhappy places I wished I left behind
It consumes my being, the truth of love I cannot find

Feeling sick to the bone in your absence of presence
I said I’d be fine, but that’s only true when I live from my essence
And the opening in my heart when you were here
Left a hole of emptiness, struggle and despair

© 2021 Original painting and poetry by heartlight.blog. All rights reserved.

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Karma Release

Sacha

I know they didn’t mean to cause me sorrow and pain
But it’s so deeply ingrained that it flows through my veins
It’s a karmic imprint at the base of my being
The truth of love and light I no longer am seeing

Like a crack in a clay jaw, a ray of light might occasionally shine through
But only with the idea and thought of an imaginary you
You who could love the unloved, who could be all that I need
But in truth, it’s just an illusion with an unstoppable hunger I feed

The sorrow and pain they put me through growing up
Has left a reservoir of disturbed emotions keeping my lifeforce stuck
It’s like a filter of hurt to watch the world trough
So what they did back then, I now see in you too

I know you told me you didn’t mean to cause me harm and sadness
But the story repeats in my head’s heavy madness
I wanna break free, find the strength to undo what I am seeing
To crack the jaw open, so light of love can flow through my being

The flow of love shall come from deep within my heart
So I no longer look outward for healing my broken parts
To recognise the truth that everyone just wanna be love
But life broke them too, so they had no more to give of

So I’ll practise ending my story of love being mugged
A narrative of abandonment, of someone broken and unloved
I’ll remove the filter from the eyes of my being
So what no longer serves me, I am lovingly freeing

© 2021 Original painting and poetry by heartlight.blog. All rights reserved.

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Lost My True Being

Sacha

This is not my true face, but it is all you are seeing
Not recognising my softness, my bliss, my true being
Can I blame you when all you see is this dark shield of sorrow?
The anger and sadness have killed my hope for a better tomorrow

My eyes are so red from crying you can’t see the blue
The union of love where I was there with you
My skin has turned black from the thoughts in my mind
I long for my true being that I am not able to find

© 2021 Original painting and poetry by heartlight.blog. All rights reserved.

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My Own Reflection

Sacha

I know you don’t want contact
‘Cause you’re going through your own stuff
But being without you also feels rough
After being in presence, after opening up

Why do you feel the need to retreat
Can’t you be open when being in need?
This pattern of being all and then non
Is a pattern we share, but it’s not very fun

What does it take to undo this imprint of relating
So I no longer live my life longing and waiting?
I need to deeply realise that you are just a projection
That in truth, you are nothing but my own reflection

© 2021 Original painting and poetry by heartlight.blog. All rights reserved.