Fear – Heartlight Poetry

Healing the Layers Within

June 28, 2021 Sacha

I can feel there are layers within me I just can’t reach
Layers of deep sadness there just won’t cease

Even though the outer layers are calm and collected
The deepest layer feels so frightened and unprotected

It longs to feel the sweetness of being
In all I am embracing, feeling and seeing

The sweet nectar of love, union and bliss
Now chocolate and sugar are the replacement for this

Unfortunately, this sweetness doesn’t last very long
And leaves me more empty and depressed after on

Indulging in this artificial and addictive behaviour
I have to deeply realise this is not my true saviour

And dare to feel the deep layers of hurt and hardness
To live my life truthfully in softness and vastness

To not escape the heavy prison of the unsettled mind
But transform it into the loving light and the bliss that is behind

Then even the deepest layer will not be captive of the dungeon’s fiction
And I can start living fully again despite pain, mental struggle and friction

I’ll fall deeper and deeper into the space of the heart
And let every layer of my being fall lovingly apart

Returning to oneness will be the faith of my soul
I’ll finally be healed, blissful and whole!

Original artwork, Original poetry

Afraid of Drowning

June 25, 2021 Sacha

You are afraid of the deep, afraid of me
Living your life on shallow waters
You are scared of drowning out at sea

You have to have faith and follow your heart
To sink beneath the waves
Where stillness shows we are not apart

You are pulled to me, to the deep blue sea
But choose to ride your boat with speed
Instead of becoming all you can be

I wish you would leave your safety west on deck
And let the water penetrate your being
Surrendering with no fear and no regret

You see, you have a choice between safe and true
Playing in shallow waters and cruising the waves
Or diving deep to find the real authentic you!

Original artwork, Original poetry

I have to realise that you are way too much in fear
The games your mind play mean you can’t have me near
I appreciate ‘our space’ but know I have to let you go
I have to find my strength, that I to my own heart owe

I owe my heart to be with ‘you’
Who can love me so fully all my patterns undo
Who can be authentic, distinguishable from the ‘coof’
A grownup manifesting the love of truth!

Until the day ‘you’ will appear
I’ll love my heart and all its fear
I’ll be the wholeness of a burning presence
For ‘you’ to appear in the light of my essence

Then we can flow into the play of love
Manifesting qualities from high above
The light will shine through me, and I’ll know I’m not lost
Being true to my heart no matter the cost!

Original artwork, Original poetry

Anger

May 14, 2021May 14, 2021 Sacha

You destroy our love with your anger and rage
Your damaged mind keep me encaged
You force me to leave and force me to stay
Force me to listen, to look, to obey

Your anger so violently perfuses my space
My heart closes down while you argue your case
Screaming, demanding, but in truth falling short
A master of destruction while you bring me to court

Asking me to justify a lifetime of hurt and unfairness
Your victimhood story on repeat without any awareness
I don’t want your pain, anger and frustration under my skin
I am not your perpetrator, your enemy, your mental bin

Your powerful energies of destruction get trapped
In my body as hardness, my lifeforce gets tapped
It activates so much fear in my mind, and being
Your destructive energies are all that I am seeing

I run away to let the wind of peace blow my fears away
But when I return home ‘the angry Hulk’ shows his dismay
In a blink of an eye, you raise your hand in furry and fire
A scary scene from my life filled with sadness, fear and dire

You chase me through the darkness, and I can’t get away
Like a horror movie, you hunt me down and force me to stay
Screams like a psycho lost all control and sense of decency
Your anger and fury is the cause of my heart’s vacancy

Beneath your anger, I do know there is sorrow and sadness
But please stop blaming me for all your mental madness
Stop forcing me to be a certain way to please your will
Keep acting this way, and my affection and love, you will kill!

Original artwork, Original poetry

Killing Medusa

May 10, 2021 Sacha

In killing Medusa we can’t look at her straight
As turning to stone would be our faith
To transform our immobility response and then heal
We must fist our trauma and deepest fear feel

But like Perseus, we must listen to the Wisdom Goddess
To not hunt Medusa head-on and stay true to this promise
In completing the immobility response to heal our trauma
We must follow our symptoms but not fight our karma

When Perseus killed Medusa two creatures arose from her loss
Chrysaor, the golden sword of truth and Pegasus, the winged horse
Symbols of warrior power, and how to escape our limitations
How to be brave, to live in fearlessness and transcendence

The myth of Medusa is a hero/heroine tale of trauma healing
Which is not a pathology but a true opportunity for unsealing
And transforming our deepest unconscious energy and unfreeze
Our full karmic imprint; killing Medusa IS trauma release

Original artwork, Original poetry

Hello

March 28, 2021 Sacha

Hello – Just wanted to know if you are near?
I am finally alone without all the screaming in my ear
All I long for is to be out of this madness
Embracing love, letting go of my sadness

Hello – Just wanted to tell you I am here
Saying yes to this love despite of my fear
Despite of all the tightness I feel inside
I no longer wish to make riddles, to run or to hide

Hello – Are you real and are you here?
Or are you just an illusion vanished in fear?
I feel so much beauty and how it again is to thrive
The presence within you is transforming my life

Hello?

Tag: Fear

Healing the Layers Within

Afraid of Drowning

A Pledge to my Heart

Anger

Killing Medusa

Hello