I don’t want to live And I don’t want to die I’m killing myself With self-hate and lies I’ve been so alone Saw no one else here Been so alone That I had nothing to fear But you gave me hope Believed in my dreams And I took it all in me Unwise as it now seems ‘Cause the dreams disappeared Each time you saw away Like you couldn’t keep your promises And make the dreams stay
I don’t want to live And I don’t want to die My dreams are hiding A place much much too high You made me a dreamer But I am a naive and foolish one Now too much a dreamer To see reality beyond But a dreamer without dreams Is like laying in the grave You must bring them back Aren’t they worth to save? You believed in them Or was it just a lie? I love you too much So don’t let me die!
Why does my inner child still believe she is apart? And looks for that someone with the key to her heart? That lost little girl just waiting for you to take her hand Believes she can’t survive if she on her own has to stand
But what that little girl just don’t catch Is that no one outside has a key that’s a match All along, I have been the one holding the key The love she longs for is inside of me!
I have to realise that you are way too much in fear The games your mind play mean you can’t have me near I appreciate ‘our space’ but know I have to let you go I have to find my strength, that I to my own heart owe
I owe my heart to be with ‘you’ Who can love me so fully all my patterns undo Who can be authentic, distinguishable from the ‘coof’ A grownup manifesting the love of truth!
Until the day ‘you’ will appear I’ll love my heart and all its fear I’ll be the wholeness of a burning presence For ‘you’ to appear in the light of my essence
Then we can flow into the play of love Manifesting qualities from high above The light will shine through me, and I’ll know I’m not lost Being true to my heart no matter the cost!